Tuesday, July 27, 2010 ' 18:24 Y
Heyloo Earthling[s] ;D
Idk why but everyday , around tys tyme [ which is 6.24pm ] , I'll feel soo sleepy . && Im getting irritated by tt . Cn you imagine it ? Wake up at 6am , go sch & go back sch , reach sch around 4 , bath & eat , now , playing lappy , doin some revision later & sleep ?? Wtf ? Lyke no lyfe lyke tt siaa . Cannot lyke tt laa , must wakeup kayy suhailah =D N level coming !
Haissshhh , sometimes , I think as if Im a child w/o parents . Idk why I feel lyke tys but if u were to ask me if I lyke working mums ? The answer will be NO ! Wanna noe why I don lyke && agree ? Its because tt , Im born in a situation which my mum is always by my side & papa is working 12/24 hrs per day . So , I understand tt papa has to work to support all of us && I noe tt papa noe how to show hys LOVE towards all hys children . Every tyme , when he just reach home from work , all the 3 children of hys will go to the gate && salam hym . && sumtyme , he even kiss us !! Can u imagine ? At the age of 16 , I still get a kiss from hys ? Tt show how important was us towards hym . Unlike mum , she doesnt noe how to show her LOVE towards us . From small , Im being pampered by nenek , datok , papa , kakak & abang . What I remember is , mum will always scold me && wadever I want , I'll ask from nenek/kakak/papa . So , mum is always the angry one . & when Im big , she wanted to work ?? Can I accept tt ? Although she work because of some fucking bastard has conned our fam & turn MY FAM upside down , but I just dun lyke it . Now tt she's work , I want her at home ! Cooking & cleaning the house ! Just lyke other housewifes do ! Keep me accompany ! Last tyme , nenek&mum is always by my side but now ? Both of them are gone ! Its hard to myt them nowadays . Nenek&Datok have live on their own now & Mum is always busy working . Sometymes , I just want someone to scold me when I did something wrong && I want MY MUM to scold me ! Crazy ryte ? But tts the fact . I want everyday is lyke weekends . Where all of us can gather ! Only MY FAMILY ! Although I always complain bout my mum , but deep thru down my heart , I noe tt I cant live w/o her , w/o papa , w/o kakak , w/o abang , w/o nenek & w/o datok ='( Its hard to explain my feelings ryte now . I just hate my feelings ryte now !
But I noe tt I nid to be strong to face all tys . As strong as my kakak && I noe tt I CAN be strong but deep inside , im dying ! I dun care wad all of u gonna say BUT tys is wad Im facing ! && REMEMBER tys , IM HERE TO EXPRESS MY FEELING , NOT TO IMPRESS U GUYS ! Understand ?
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